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#Blog post of 2014

What I have learnt in this year and I hope I know it earlier

1. 關關難過真係關關過，所以自己比自己太大壓力係太傻

2. Pamper yourself so you can walk a long way

3. Chocolate helps when you are so stressed

4. Smell something good helps as well

5. Learn how to control yourself temper makes you a better day

6. Learn how to release your stress is super essential throughout your life

7. Talk to friends, they are willing to be your listener. Don't be self-pity

8. Put God first and you will see the different in your LIFE

9. Wake up early makes a difference

10. Time management save you

11. What doesn't kill you really do make you stronger

12. Your parents love you more than you can ever imagine

13. Hiking heals something

14. Drinking doesn't help. It just makes the whole thing worst and it's just a temporary feeling which you feel like you need some alcohol at that moment but actually you don't.

15. Somehow you feel like you are not going to overcome it but after a while, you just make it.

16. Read more. Or do whatever things that can make you a better person. Enrich yourself.

17. Eating healthy food sometime makes you happier

18. When you are tired, give yourself a break. Never force yourself

19. Put God first and everything will fall into place

20. Do your best, be a better version of ccl

21. Smile more

22. Ask yourself "Is everything I'm stressing about worth it? What are my priorities in life?"

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16 Dec 2014

In these days, I lost my sense of humour and happiness

not all, but a lot of them.

Finally end of sem3 and exam period now.

Let's have a life in this way

wake up early

good breakfast

yoga

silence

devotion bible

workout

revision

relaxation

family time

read

play

Where's my smile :(

Tho I just lose a bit of them

I still want it back :(

Fatherpapa, I need you

A perfect Monday

Amen

This life

Getting used with this life

like I my intuition told me that it's gotta be super busy very soon.

As I would like to be a core this year for the Bethel,

(tho I am still wondering & keep thinking abt it)

I think I have to manage my time better in the coming year.

Since this year is actually a very important year for myself,

I would like to do my very best for my academic aspect.

It means I have to be more efficient and unbeatable :p

However,

I am learning how to manage both the mental status and the real life time management recently and I am still not quite sure whether I can make it cool or not srsly...

I think I have to spend more time w God in order to gain much energy from Him for my everyday life hahahahah xx

"That's always seemed so ridiculous to me, that people want to be around someone because they're pretty. It's like picking your breakfast cereals based on colour instead of taste."

- JOHN GREEN

My dear #kellychan 1

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“You may not see it today or tomorrow, but you will look back in a few years and be absolutely perplexed and awed by how every little thing added up and brought you somewhere wonderful - or where you always wanted to be. You will be grateful that things didn’t work out the way you once wanted them to.”

– Five things I am trying very hard to accept

“

1. Your skin may never be perfect, and that’s okay.

2. Life is too short not to have the underwear, the coffee, and the haircut you want.

3. Everyone (including your family, your coworkers, and your best friend) will talk about you behind your back, and you’ll talk about them too. It doesn’t mean you don’t love each other.

4. It’s okay to spend money on things that make you happy.

5. Sometimes without fault or reason, relationships deteriorate. It will happen when you’re six, it will happen when you’re sixty. That’s life.

”

– Five things I am trying very hard to accept 

So I came here

And here I am again

I feel a bit weird after a long talk w bor and nic

not sure why

but

weird feeling but my heart sink a bit.

A bit sad.

And I rmb this place,

so I came here,

and write it down...

Those sun beams xx

Such a perfect day to go out but I didn't plan to lol

Just to lazy to get change, shower, make up, etc...

But honestly,

it's the best sunny day in this month :)

Just love the way how the sun beams shine through the window

and

get into the living room x

My macbook, the cushions, chairs, table, floor are covered by the shiny color oh my

how lovely can it be.

And it gotta be the best if I am not that lazy to go out :p

Night time

"It's okay to be different, but don't do it to stand out purposely,

that only makes you the same."

loves it.

A glance of my future 'one man band' life lol

Just had dinner by myself at the foodcourt at 6smth

Oh, and I wear a pair of jean shorts today

and I went to kln tong to take notes, just to take notes from a graduated c jei.

Read while I was having my chicken cheesy rice

and I heard and observed some unique phenomenon.

That's a cool feeling.

Bought two cans of 'discounted' coffee at Apita.

btw, people are so busy for the ocamp and oday things and no time for night run recently...

fai d duc harn laaaaaa 

Obsession

I am quite obsessed with pretty cup or mug.

Overcame ice-skating mental obstacle

Quality friends make every moment a quality moment.

Every single thing is a blessing in my life,

Amen.

Smth about the generation gap but the truth is...

Just chatted w mum and dad

and talk about some 'moral' relationship stuffs.

I just stuck in the point that it's others' freedom to choose a partner who they love.

I just went a bit agitated...

But luckily,

I shared w Nic about that and he reminded me one thing

which is pretty crucial

- people on earth have different point of views, different stances. 

Recently. These few days.

I feel like

A little bit

weird

.

I mean

I

myself

.

Met a decoration worker.

Just met a decoration worker in the lobby.

He asked the boy

'Which year how you studying now?'

The boy said equivocally with a little bit sadness

'I am not studying now.'

'Oh, why aren't you studying huh?'

'It's impossible to get a job if you stop learning and studying nowadays!'

The boy didn't reply.

And the worker just get into the same lift with me.

People,

just some people I hope,

made their statement too early,

before they get to know the person deeply

before they knew their stories.

And more,

we can never know the whole story and all the stories.

So,

who am I to give any comments or even

judgement?

Thinking is the most addictive drug on earth...

This is kinda a weirdo group huh?

We didn't think in the way the majority people think nowadays.

We can drill in a 'simple' question for an hour.

We share very different perspective which we are not afraid of being ourselves in the group.

It's kinda weird to meet this group of people at this moment,

maybe that's because I didn't expect to.

But honestly,

it's kinda fun to meet you all.

A quite heavy dinner.

So full,

I mean

my mind.

But,

it's good,

for me.

Quality time for myself to think think and think.

To cool down and stop the time,

focus on smth that maybe worth talking about...

But,

I think I need to clarify one thing.

The aim of joining the group.

Hope that's a 'right' propose.

Anyway,

thanks God for guiding me into this group.

Quite fresh and lovely.

The atmosphere is attractive.

The choral concert night!

I just want to say again it's my pleasure

and

really thanks for God's plan.

Like I have never ever imagined I will meet a group of friends like you guys (:

Great afternoon w/ unexpected photos shooting things.

Great night w/ great vocalists.

Amen.

A day to remember

It may seems to be a normal day for others

but it means...quite a lot to me.

As a fellowship,

all the words are so beautiful that I know there are tons of people supporting me.

In God,

walking together.

It may sounds cliche,

but touching indeed.

And I look back again

Just randomly flipping the album on facebook,

a year passed.

Too fast and I can't believe I have gone through that many things

all in God's plan.

How amazing His plan is?

:)

Movie night w/ Pang

Unexpectedly

my heart sinks after watching the film

'Broke up 100 times'.

Can't really tell the reasons atm

maybe it's just too heavy for me atm.

Or maybe I have not yet overcome the whole thing so I kept throwing back while watching it.

So

I just feel like I need to write smth here

to express myself.

Maybe it's one of a ways to let myself feel better.

I don't know why

I just think of God's plan after watching it...

One of the best thing in life

One of the best thing in life is to spend time w/ friends

Any topics, quality words, words from the deepest of our hearts.

Life,

is easier than we think.

Amen!

?

Do I really wanna be a successful woman?

What's the definition of 'successful'?

It seems to be a cliche question but it's really a question.

Do I really need a car or I just want a car in the future?

Do I really wanna come out and get a job and earn my own money

or

it's just I don't want to be 'controlled' by my mum?

Am I putting God in the first place

or

I am just pretending I am but actually I am not deep inside my heart?

"God first, family second and my work third."

This is my ultimate goal in my life.

Putting God beyonds every single thing.

It's easier said then done.

I can foresee that I gotta face so many dilemmas as a life-long christian,

but dear ccl,

you can make it through in the name of God. 

When people make a hole in your heart

They have expectations on me, so they said mean words to warn me to shine brighter.

They thought I didn't work hard so they decided to discourage me.

They show their support in this way.

I feel so weak.

It's my life and why am I wondering whether I should fulfil their expectations or not?

So hilarious. Seriously.

(Just a snapshot of my life, I calmed down)

Family is an important element in life.

They are the one who support you and believe in your decision when nobody do.

Never wait till the last minute in your life to express your love towards your family members,

as you never know when's the last day of your life.

Enrich myself.

It's an life-long project.

成長

好久 沒回來這裏了

差不多完sem 在找intern

不知不覺間跟隨着social norms活動

幸好還是個學生 而且幹着自己喜歡的事

有神 有目標去奮鬥 很有愛又能信任的朋友 溺愛我的家人

What can I ask for more? Amen.

種種的挑戰不停地來來去去

興奮 緊張 擔心 懷疑 期待

一大堆實在的感覺令我有點彷惶

但身體裏一直有把聲音提醒自己要不斷挑戰自己 才能訓練好自己

我相信自己變得那麼大膽是靠過去一年日積月累得來的

抗壓力增強了 能力比過去明顯地高了

這些 都真的是血汗換來的

感恩 一切都撐過來了

回頭望 知道是神的計劃

雖然這段日子 很痛 但成長了 都是值得的

很諷刺

成長 真的要用痛 才能真真正正的成長

但為了自己 就繼續痛下去吧

(:

Everything happened for reasons.

I know it's good for the future me to fall that hard in order to learn.

Thank you God, you always tell me that I am not alone.

I feel like growing again. 

I mean, I grew.

This time, I can literally notice that I really grew in a short period of time.

This hard fall down breaks my wall of arrogant. 

Thank you God, it is so nice to break my arrogant atm.

I really need someone to do this for me.

It didnt feel good.

But now I know I have to be humble in order to be a better me.

 btw, thank you counsellor.

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進步

- Cos I am crazy enough to think I can do it -

♡

Blessed.

How blessed I am..

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這個美好的夜晚

兩個家庭聚首一堂 分享着美味有質素的食物

簡單 特別

放過自己

親愛的

這些的經歷是為了引導妳去找那個

適合妳愛護妳疼愛妳珍惜妳和懂得妳的人

不要再回頭了

連在凌晨四時的妳都有清晰的方向

就不要再糾纏下去了

把那雙沒完全攤開的手張開吧

妳值得擁有一個尊重妳愛護妳的另一半

"Let go(d)"

"Move on..."

享受

享受這種滿足的疲累

任 性 一 下

新學期第一堂學整動畫 新開始

早起去食早餐的行動失敗 :(

好耐無試過放學果一刻有一絲身心疲累嘅感覺

再訓咁少我一定好快死 . . .

哈哈 咁口語化寫網誌有種回到當年嘅感覺

原諒我訓太少 頭腦唔靈活到一個點

只想亂寫一通

記低今日 放低今日發生嘅事係度

然後聽日又重新上路 :)

好任性 放學太掛住翠華奶茶

狼到叫杯外賣 一路係巴士度飲

寵壞自己

沒有比一大清早吃個豐富早餐才乖乖走去上堂的事了

很好

我給原本頗糟的一天一個正能量不斷提升的終結

大半天都給負能量打倒了自己 還以為真的要帶着它們入睡

去迎接我新學期的第一天

感謝天父爸爸 家人今個晚上懂我的脾氣

讓我沒有帶負能量到晚餐去

若不 吃進肚裏去的不快樂一定使我坐立不安

我真幸福

吃飽飽後

我把心一橫 將書桌上的雜物清掉

只剩下書和簡單的日用品

我發現 乾淨的桌面給我動力和勇氣去迎接我親愛的Sem 2

這個大掃除的決定果然沒錯

能抒發心裏莫名的不爽外 還重新讓我拾回努力工作準備的空間

真好

一不離二 下個目標是早睡早起

因為早上的時間實在太好用

而且 我總認為

沒有比一大清早吃個豐富早餐才乖乖走去上堂的事了

吃完早餐總會給我好多好多的正能量

好好地埋頭苦幹 哈哈

是時候去睡 (哈欠) 晚安 各位

又一個開始

[Photo from Tumblr]

一直很想找回一個能夠讓自己胡亂寫寫的網誌

總算走出自己懶惰和嫌麻煩的圈圈 在新學期開始前好好的寫一下 

突然好希望透過文字

好好地提醒自己要謙卑的過每一天

緊守自己的原則和底線 好好保存着最原汁原味的自己

即使身邊的朋友有多大的改變

請緊記

最原來的自己 是最特別 最美 最自己

過去二十多天 每天都放慢的活着

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