分享與文字的能力，就是讓我這樣的一個女子，有繼續相信等待和真愛的能力和信。這個人不在乎認識了多久，自要繼續做那個真真實實的自己，是這個人的時候，你會知道的，會知道的，會的。
Tue 29 Nov 14:29
2016年11月29日 星期二
< Pink 1 >
Lesson 4
禱告其中一種方式是感恩。
凡事藉著禱告、祈求，和感謝，將你們所要的告訴上帝。< 腓四6 >
我們白白接受了天父的供應，我們沒有特別祈求，祂卻毫不間斷地供應我們生命的需要。因此，我們知道了，也明白了，我們現在所得的，從來不是我們的，而是天父的賜予。因此，對於我們自身的一無所有和在祂裏面的，我們以禱告感謝天父上帝。
Tue 29 Nov 13:24
2016年11月27日 星期日
2016年11月24日 星期四
Fri 25 Nov 00:28
2016年11月22日 星期二
Baking
Just realised it has been awhile not baking anything. Baking, to me, is a new kind of de-stress and emptied-mind practice. Like walking and washing dishes at mid-night. Only me and the ingredients. Follow the recipe step by step without thinking, just weighting. I am working but at the same time resting. I get in the zone and ignore the rest happening at that moment. Priceless.
I am glad that at different stages, I know myself a little bit more. The progress cannot be rushed. It takes time to build the list up, I take time to digest who am I. Such a complicated yet fulfilled feeling. Spending time with myself - to read, to cook, to bake, to walk, to pray. I enjoy the moments when I can fully embraced and owned my true self without considering other's opinions and judgement. Being me.
To be honest, I didn't expect that 'baking' will be on my de-stress list one day as I thought it's not so ccl. C'est la vie. When I least expected it, it turns out surprising me.
I am glad that at different stages, I know myself a little bit more. The progress cannot be rushed. It takes time to build the list up, I take time to digest who am I. Such a complicated yet fulfilled feeling. Spending time with myself - to read, to cook, to bake, to walk, to pray. I enjoy the moments when I can fully embraced and owned my true self without considering other's opinions and judgement. Being me.
To be honest, I didn't expect that 'baking' will be on my de-stress list one day as I thought it's not so ccl. C'est la vie. When I least expected it, it turns out surprising me.
2016年11月16日 星期三
Letting go is the easy part
"Letting go is the easy part.
It's the moving on that's painful.
So sometimes we fight it, trying to keep things the same.
Things can't stay the same though.
At some point you just have to let go, move on.
Because no matter how painful it is, it's the only way we grow"
It's the moving on that's painful.
So sometimes we fight it, trying to keep things the same.
Things can't stay the same though.
At some point you just have to let go, move on.
Because no matter how painful it is, it's the only way we grow"
— Meredith Grey
2016年11月7日 星期一
Ariel
Seems like time can be paused at that moment. Ariel is such a genuine girl. Thank for suggesting to stay in the cafe and chill a little bit. It allows me to realise that even I haven't been achieving so much in these two months, I also didn't allow myself to live at that moment at a chill place with no concerns and overthinking thoughts in my mind. Thank you for living in the flat in the beginning of the month.
Mon 7 Nov 23:05
2016年11月6日 星期日
等待
等待 江松霖
一切都是從夢見你開始 也許天氣涼也有關係 我們肩並著肩坐在一起 就像當初那麼相愛相親 然後你說你要離開一下子 所以我在這裡等你 等著等著我就哭醒 然後發現窗外下著雨 我等著天晴等雨停 就是決定再也不等你 我等著自己忘記你 等到可以再見面的時候 不會傷心 離開你是幾個月的事情 慢慢可以聽見你的消息 也曾期待你的回心轉意 等著電話獨自哭泣 以為你就只是離開一下子 所以我在這裡等你 等著等著我就哭醒 台北的雨一直沒有停 我等著天晴等雨停 就是決定再也不等你 我等著自己忘記你 等到可以再見面的時候 我等著天晴等雨停 就是決定再也不等你 我等著自己忘記你 等到可以再見面的時候 不會傷心 可以相信
Mon 7 Nov 00:27
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DMNXANQofpY
一切都是從夢見你開始 也許天氣涼也有關係 我們肩並著肩坐在一起 就像當初那麼相愛相親 然後你說你要離開一下子 所以我在這裡等你 等著等著我就哭醒 然後發現窗外下著雨 我等著天晴等雨停 就是決定再也不等你 我等著自己忘記你 等到可以再見面的時候 不會傷心 離開你是幾個月的事情 慢慢可以聽見你的消息 也曾期待你的回心轉意 等著電話獨自哭泣 以為你就只是離開一下子 所以我在這裡等你 等著等著我就哭醒 台北的雨一直沒有停 我等著天晴等雨停 就是決定再也不等你 我等著自己忘記你 等到可以再見面的時候 我等著天晴等雨停 就是決定再也不等你 我等著自己忘記你 等到可以再見面的時候 不會傷心 可以相信
Mon 7 Nov 00:27
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DMNXANQofpY
我要變成全世界最勇敢的人
詞曲：江松霖(小松)
我養的蝦子死掉了
他變得紅通通 沉在水中
我晾的衣服淋濕了
才發現你不會再提醒我
*我們有多久沒見了
其實都還關心你呢
我還是偶爾傷心
在想起你 決定要離開我的時候
我要踏上一個陌生的旅途
我會忘記有你陪伴的溫度
學著放下心中最遺憾孤獨
學著祝福
我要變成全世界最勇敢的人
相信一切安排都是最好的路
再見
Mon 7 Nov 00:23
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fJBICD2okxg
Mon 7 Nov 00:23
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fJBICD2okxg
2016年11月3日 星期四
All from God.
I am that kind of people who will cut the song and change into another song if I don't feel like listening to that song or don't fancy that song.
Same as the guys I met.
I realised that I made more right decisions this time when I am facing this 'thing'. I can't say that I am proud of that but indeed I can feel something inside me is changing is moving is improving. Even sometimes I would like to find him and would like to do something I know I shouldn't do so, I can control myself. I don't know why and I have no clues where do these braveness and wisdoms come from, probably from God.
And when I looked back each day, time really does fly. Especially when I focus on what I should be focusing on and on God, time heals at the same time. *At this moment, I am sitting in the living room with Gracelee while we are working on different things on our own but at the same zone. Not talking to each other, but reading and writing what I am writing at the moment. Nice.*
Tho I am not sure how this 'thing' is going to end and how are we going to 'deal' with it. Anyway, it's obvious that I m handling this 'thing' with a totally different method which I didn't expect myself can handle this that well at all. All from God.
Fri 4 Nov 00:56
Same as the guys I met.
I realised that I made more right decisions this time when I am facing this 'thing'. I can't say that I am proud of that but indeed I can feel something inside me is changing is moving is improving. Even sometimes I would like to find him and would like to do something I know I shouldn't do so, I can control myself. I don't know why and I have no clues where do these braveness and wisdoms come from, probably from God.
And when I looked back each day, time really does fly. Especially when I focus on what I should be focusing on and on God, time heals at the same time. *At this moment, I am sitting in the living room with Gracelee while we are working on different things on our own but at the same zone. Not talking to each other, but reading and writing what I am writing at the moment. Nice.*
Tho I am not sure how this 'thing' is going to end and how are we going to 'deal' with it. Anyway, it's obvious that I m handling this 'thing' with a totally different method which I didn't expect myself can handle this that well at all. All from God.
Fri 4 Nov 00:56
2016年11月2日 星期三
AT THE OUTPOST
I don't know, just feel like writing again.
Recently, I found that it has been a long while that I didn't take my time to know what I am exactly doing and working on. No clues at all. From the time I moved in and live with Grace, it feels like there's always somebody staying with me - which is good when I am in such a fluctuate situation and mood. However, I know that I can't be like that all the time. So probably that's the reason why I just come to Outpost alone and write whatever I want to write and not going back to my flat till I feel better with it. To let the things run through me with no one else I am familiar with. Such a feeling which I haven't been feeling for a LONG TIME. I can't even find that feeling when I was in Edinburgh, probably because I know that there are still some people I may come across with and I know that. As one of the purpose of heading to Edinburgh is to visit Dandan, the trip is no longer 'aimless'. There are restrictions in my mind and I don't know why, that's just a kind of feeling and it's true.
*Listening to Norah Jones - Don't Know Why*
It seems like I keep solving some problems in the past 43 days, but still there are a few holes I tried to avoid intentionally. I am not sure why as well but seems like it's time to push myself a little bit further towards them.
Anyways, feel so completed when I can spend time COMPLETELY alone T____T like I don't feel like going back home at the moment cos Grace is having her dayoff. I know it may sound weird but I just realised that that kind of alone time I need is not just having a complete silence and work on whatever I would like to work on in my room, but rather a place I know no one else and not even knowing that somebody is sleeping right next to the room of mine. I just don't want to feel like someone else is living around me or at a certain distance. I need that space where no one notice my existence but just the owner of the cafe. Haha, good to know myself a bit more when I started to live with someone else. Everything is about knowing myself a bit more :)
Wed 2 Nov 13:06 at the OUTPOST COFFEE, Nottingham
Recently, I found that it has been a long while that I didn't take my time to know what I am exactly doing and working on. No clues at all. From the time I moved in and live with Grace, it feels like there's always somebody staying with me - which is good when I am in such a fluctuate situation and mood. However, I know that I can't be like that all the time. So probably that's the reason why I just come to Outpost alone and write whatever I want to write and not going back to my flat till I feel better with it. To let the things run through me with no one else I am familiar with. Such a feeling which I haven't been feeling for a LONG TIME. I can't even find that feeling when I was in Edinburgh, probably because I know that there are still some people I may come across with and I know that. As one of the purpose of heading to Edinburgh is to visit Dandan, the trip is no longer 'aimless'. There are restrictions in my mind and I don't know why, that's just a kind of feeling and it's true.
*Listening to Norah Jones - Don't Know Why*
It seems like I keep solving some problems in the past 43 days, but still there are a few holes I tried to avoid intentionally. I am not sure why as well but seems like it's time to push myself a little bit further towards them.
Anyways, feel so completed when I can spend time COMPLETELY alone T____T like I don't feel like going back home at the moment cos Grace is having her dayoff. I know it may sound weird but I just realised that that kind of alone time I need is not just having a complete silence and work on whatever I would like to work on in my room, but rather a place I know no one else and not even knowing that somebody is sleeping right next to the room of mine. I just don't want to feel like someone else is living around me or at a certain distance. I need that space where no one notice my existence but just the owner of the cafe. Haha, good to know myself a bit more when I started to live with someone else. Everything is about knowing myself a bit more :)
Wed 2 Nov 13:06 at the OUTPOST COFFEE, Nottingham
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