It's a mixed feeling when it comes to "I don't know whether I should ask for a longer stay or not"...
Cos I know I don't have any bargaining power when it comes to asking for help or something like that. I feel so embarrassed and I really have no clues about how should I ask for this.
To be honest, I know what I can do is go wherever there's a place for me and just get used to what I have. I can't have what I want anytime and this should be one of the lesson I learnt. However, there's always struggle and a grey area for me to deal with it...
Adulthood is hard and unemployed time is hard too. How should I adjust my mentality in order to walk through all these "down" time? I don't know. I don't want myself to take things for granted... Yet, I don't want to live at a place that I might not find it comfortable enough to be myself.
It's interesting that I have never experienced these moments before, and I kind of decided to put it into my bag of "must-learn" in this journey.
I don't know where God will lead me but I believe He will prepare the best for me.
Hey girl, still remember at today's fellowship, God kinda remind me about...
"Don't you believe that I will prepare the best for you my daughter?"
"Oh yes God, I do. Yet, I am weak. Please strengthen me by Your power and grant me faith from You."
Sun 6 Oct 23:40
