Healing

Finally, I can feel like I m in the progress of healing.. finally.

Today I shared my testimony in front of the old and newbies of the fellowship and I still looked at him serval times and searched for his existence in the crowd intentionally.

He talked to me one time when I was talking with Marco, he just sat down behind us and asked me what time tomorrow. And I said I am busy tomorrow and I need some sleep as well. He knew I am not that busy, but just escaping.

So he asked me to come over and said it will just take me 15 seconds, while I was talking in a group. My body just pulled me over and we sat down. He asked me whether I am escaping or I just need to sleep more - which he could already interpreted that as 'ccl needs more time'. I replied ' I have no ideas I just don't want to talk about it', then I left right away which I was controlled by my body once again.