Just feel like writing my first expenses diary on Excel, so I did it. However, it is one of the most breath-taking thing I have ever done as when I was writing and looking back on my expenses per month, I almost want to puke. The stress of managing money is real and kind of shit. However, as one of my feet is in the zone of the world of adulthood, I can't not push myself to manage the money in my hands in a better way.
I believe this is one of the 'I don't want to do but I know I have to so I do it' things in life that will keep going no matter how much I earn in the future. It's a painful experience. Even now I have completed my first draft of my expenses excel, I still feel so stressed managing and counting even pounds and bit. However, I believe that the more regularly I work on it, the better I will feel (or I will just get used to it).
This is such a random yet important note for myself. One step closer to a dream mature young-adult life. Painful yet necessary. Need wisdom from God to manage all the tiny and huge things in my life. Phew. You can do it ccl. It's a challenge that makes you a better, wise and organised lady :)
Fri 28 Apr 14:16
2017年4月28日 星期五
2017年4月22日 星期六
22
22, it seems so close and so far that it just slips away from me so I am officially 22 now. An interesting picture is now happening in front of me: Pooh is sleeping on the right hand side, Charlie is lying on the bed with his typical 'man's gesture', Henry is hea-ing and surfing on his phone next to Charlie with his facial-less face while Adrian is working on the sofa bench with me. This picture is funny enough to note it down because it's causal and realistic. We are all human like we got work to finish, we chill and we sleep. We are special but at the same time we got many similarities in life. Learn to appreciate, keep on figuring out the pretty weird face and expression of different people. These bring life a little smile unexpectedly.
This should be the most chill and aimless birthday I have ever had. No burden when travelling with the men and no surprises at the same time. However, this doesn't mean much to me cos from time to time, birthday becomes just a day. Nothing fancy makes life real and much easy to appreciate. We have spent the whole morning travelling from Corfu to Albania. Tho dissertation does pop up in my head from time to time, I am trying my best to enjoy the trip without worrying too much. However, my planning habit just can't stop as I have a responsibility that has not yet accomplished.
However, there are a few questions that I would like to ask myself to make this 'birthday' a little bit meaningful. Hahah yea, you know what I mean. The society just frames that birthday should be unforgettable or at least a little special which included quality talk or deep sharing. However, I haven't really figured out what I want on my birthday to add a little more happiness on my day. What kind of tradition I would like to keep or add on my birthday in order to make myself to feel satisfied? What is simple happiness to me? It's like 'I don't want to celebrate birthday' or it's just I haven't found my way to celebrate my birthday?
Besides, I would like to set 1 to 2 goals for myself in the coming year. I would like to build a few habits to consolidate my life. First thing first, I have to catch up with my dissertation schedule as it's quite behind.
Sat 22 April 22:28 at Albania w/ 4 guys
This should be the most chill and aimless birthday I have ever had. No burden when travelling with the men and no surprises at the same time. However, this doesn't mean much to me cos from time to time, birthday becomes just a day. Nothing fancy makes life real and much easy to appreciate. We have spent the whole morning travelling from Corfu to Albania. Tho dissertation does pop up in my head from time to time, I am trying my best to enjoy the trip without worrying too much. However, my planning habit just can't stop as I have a responsibility that has not yet accomplished.
However, there are a few questions that I would like to ask myself to make this 'birthday' a little bit meaningful. Hahah yea, you know what I mean. The society just frames that birthday should be unforgettable or at least a little special which included quality talk or deep sharing. However, I haven't really figured out what I want on my birthday to add a little more happiness on my day. What kind of tradition I would like to keep or add on my birthday in order to make myself to feel satisfied? What is simple happiness to me? It's like 'I don't want to celebrate birthday' or it's just I haven't found my way to celebrate my birthday?
Besides, I would like to set 1 to 2 goals for myself in the coming year. I would like to build a few habits to consolidate my life. First thing first, I have to catch up with my dissertation schedule as it's quite behind.
Sat 22 April 22:28 at Albania w/ 4 guys
2017年4月17日 星期一
你在哪裡
作詞：林若寧
作曲：石嘉欣
編曲：石嘉欣
沒有愛情對白那套杜魯福 可以與誰觀看
沒有愛情帶路坐上橫濱線 問我共誰流浪
沒有愛情喝下那罐熱咖啡 可以替誰解渴
懷內每句話 誰肯聽聽我講
踏破鐵鞋你在哪裡為我等 給我半滴戀愛
踏破鐵鞋你在哪裡未知道 就似未曾存在
踏破鐵鞋我在這裡為你等 仿似競技比賽
尋覓太過耐 連愛亦變傷害
除非我沒有動人成份
何必怕沒有交出初吻
看著時間過 但唯有我
在尋遍每位路人
明知道未到動人時份
才等到頭上燈泡轉暗
寄望還會有位路人 清楚我亦蠻吸引
繼續迷信有情人多麼近
最後迎接有情人的一吻
習慣了獨個在四處亂碰釘 感覺愛情很遠
習慣了獨個在暗角祈禱也 未見我能如願
習慣了獨個為某個人暗戀 只有拼命打轉
尋覓到厭倦 誰兌現我心願
除非我沒有動人成份
何必怕沒有交出初吻
看著時間過 但唯有我
在尋遍每位路人
明知道未到動人時份
才等到頭上燈泡轉暗
寄望還會有位路人 清楚我亦蠻吸引
繼續迷信有情人多麼近
除非褫奪去愛的資格
仍自信有日誰會為我表白
除非我沒有動人成份
何必怕沒有交出初吻
看著時間過 但唯有我
在尋遍每位路人
明知道未到動人時份
才等到頭上燈泡轉暗
寄望還會有位路人 清楚我亦蠻吸引
繼續迷信有情人多麼近
最後迎接有情人的一吻
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dFkDpfzva7o
作曲：石嘉欣
編曲：石嘉欣
沒有愛情對白那套杜魯福 可以與誰觀看
沒有愛情帶路坐上橫濱線 問我共誰流浪
沒有愛情喝下那罐熱咖啡 可以替誰解渴
懷內每句話 誰肯聽聽我講
踏破鐵鞋你在哪裡為我等 給我半滴戀愛
踏破鐵鞋你在哪裡未知道 就似未曾存在
踏破鐵鞋我在這裡為你等 仿似競技比賽
尋覓太過耐 連愛亦變傷害
除非我沒有動人成份
何必怕沒有交出初吻
看著時間過 但唯有我
在尋遍每位路人
明知道未到動人時份
才等到頭上燈泡轉暗
寄望還會有位路人 清楚我亦蠻吸引
繼續迷信有情人多麼近
最後迎接有情人的一吻
習慣了獨個在四處亂碰釘 感覺愛情很遠
習慣了獨個在暗角祈禱也 未見我能如願
習慣了獨個為某個人暗戀 只有拼命打轉
尋覓到厭倦 誰兌現我心願
除非我沒有動人成份
何必怕沒有交出初吻
看著時間過 但唯有我
在尋遍每位路人
明知道未到動人時份
才等到頭上燈泡轉暗
寄望還會有位路人 清楚我亦蠻吸引
繼續迷信有情人多麼近
除非褫奪去愛的資格
仍自信有日誰會為我表白
除非我沒有動人成份
何必怕沒有交出初吻
看著時間過 但唯有我
在尋遍每位路人
明知道未到動人時份
才等到頭上燈泡轉暗
寄望還會有位路人 清楚我亦蠻吸引
繼續迷信有情人多麼近
最後迎接有情人的一吻
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dFkDpfzva7o
2017年4月8日 星期六
轉載:
人總是在長大了以後常常聽見「莫忘初衷」這一句話，但好聽的話人人會說，初衷也許人人都有，真正堅持到最後的又有幾個？或者，其實已經忘記了自己曾經的堅持。暫時不討論關於追逐夢想，堅持信念這類的話題，我想說的初衷，是每個人生來具有的溫柔善良。
不要因為這世界的不美好 抹滅了自己的善良
在十幾歲的年紀裡，我們眼中的世界還那麼大，那麼多事情想要靠自己一一去探索，想做的事情太多，也許還認為這個世界是全然美好的，只要妳肯相信。但在那麼年輕的時候，這世界又能給妳什麼傷害？那時候的妳期望自己一直做個溫柔的人，對這個世界溫柔就也會有溫柔的事情發生在自己身上。但長大了就知道，一直保持那樣的溫柔不變，真是不容易。
妳會在以後碰到很多無法理解但只能接受的事情，妳會從妳以為永遠不會這樣對妳的人身上受到傷害，妳會被欺負，也會被辜負。妳以為妳對那個人好他就會珍惜，然後妳就知道其實不是的，他終究愛自己多一點。妳以為的事情很多，但最後都不是妳以為的結果，漸漸的妳會學會謙虛。妳也許會做很多種工作，然後就知道妳自己最喜歡什麼。妳也會去很多地方，完成妳想要探索這個世界的夢想，然後發現這個世界的美好仍然存在。妳會認識很多人，不管好壞都教會妳許多事情，妳面對傷害也越能調適，雖然還是有快要崩潰的時刻，但還有更多人的存在，證明這世界的美好，證明妳一直以來相信的溫柔其實可以被珍惜。
所以長大了以後才發現，溫柔不是天份而是一種選擇。再不合理的傷害，再令人灰心的關係，還是可以選擇良善。雖然這個世界有他的不完美與陰暗，但妳還是要溫柔善良，不要因為世界的不公，失去了純真的自己。畢竟還沒有受過傷害以前，比較不出溫柔的珍貴。
莫忘初衷，莫忘初衷，莫要忘了那個，最美好的自己。
2017年4月6日 星期四
It happened | Woke at 8ish | we three and God
We shared a lot again :) It's a gift from God that I met you two in my two-year uni life. Didn't expect that we could be that devoted or serious when we are facing God and what we are believing.
We talk about the struggle we faced when we try to wake up in the early morning while didn't go to bed earlier the night before...
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