?

Do I really wanna be a successful woman?

What's the definition of 'successful'?

It seems to be a cliche question but it's really a question.

Do I really need a car or I just want a car in the future?

Do I really wanna come out and get a job and earn my own money

or

it's just I don't want to be 'controlled' by my mum?

Am I putting God in the first place

or

I am just pretending I am but actually I am not deep inside my heart?

"God first, family second and my work third."

This is my ultimate goal in my life.

Putting God beyonds every single thing.

It's easier said then done.

I can foresee that I gotta face so many dilemmas as a life-long christian,

but dear ccl,

you can make it through in the name of God. 

When people make a hole in your heart

They have expectations on me, so they said mean words to warn me to shine brighter.

They thought I didn't work hard so they decided to discourage me.

They show their support in this way.

I feel so weak.

It's my life and why am I wondering whether I should fulfil their expectations or not?

So hilarious. Seriously.

(Just a snapshot of my life, I calmed down)

Family is an important element in life.

They are the one who support you and believe in your decision when nobody do.

Never wait till the last minute in your life to express your love towards your family members,

as you never know when's the last day of your life.

Enrich myself.

It's an life-long project.