Looking back

It's funny how every day, every small moment adds up into a huge emotions and 'bud sei' and the heart-broken feeling these days. We live together and we spend out life here in the past 9 months. I didn't expect it would be that hard for myself to face these goodbyes and sadness. But when I look back and see how many things we have been through, it's just so amazing yet significant. Thank you Micchan, thank you Ashluk x

Hard but worth it

When I looked back to all my notes I made and how much my friends and I have accomplished for that two seen exams, I am proud of myself and ofc I can't make it without the help from my friends, definitely. And even those are hard times and super exhausted days and week, I am glad that I didn't give up and go to sleep and treat myself nice and avoid those difficulties. Instead I am glad that I spent most of my time working on it and the other time to de-stress so I can do better. Nobody said it was easy, so true, and when I looked back, it's definitely worth it.

SO STRESSED OUT

Actually when I m typing this, I am actually 50% less stressful. I am blessed that I still go to the fellowship tonight and the worship calmed my heart and my feelings. The team-building game tonight makes me feel relaxed and I am able to forget my stress for hours, literally, I can barely remember all my works and essays within the hours. After the gaming section, the unplanned praying circle gathered in the room and we prayed for Ivyso as she is planning to have a serious talk with Shan tonight. She then cried for Natchan and for the fellowship when we were praying. I can literally feel the energy within us when we were praying. I clearly know that I am not alone tho I have to write my essay by myself and face the exam all by myself but I don't feel lonely because I know that there are shoulders and ears beside me anytime, even when they are busying with their revision as well.

After I got into the university, I seldom plan my essay on the way to anywhere. But today, I was planning for my essays on the way to Beeston Free. I know I were stressed. (1) I know it's God's work to send Sharon to ask me how am I doing and listen to all my worries and stressful things. She is definitely a good listener and comforter :) (2) Ivyso always lend her shoulders to me. The body language tells it all. (3) I can't even believe that when Michaelchan knows that I am still struggling with my politics essays, he is willing to offer me a helping hand even I didn't ask for it. It meant a lot to me especially in this hard time and stressed out period. And honestly, he doesn't have the responsibility to do so, but he offers it.

In hard time, do not forget. You grace are sufficient for me. Moreover, I do agree with Sharon's idea about that when God brings me to this, "You have to bring me through it." hahah, I know you will my fatherpapa x

A little update

It has almost been 9 months staying in the U.K., things in 2016 or in the second semester are much easier for me to adapt. All are the grace from God. His grace is sufficient for me all the time. Tho there are the Rev. To issue, fellowship usual issues, a little ups and downs, I can still feel that He is with me all the time. Wherever I am and whenever I need. :)

Ytd I didn't feel good with my mood and it affected my preparation of the final exam. And when I wake up this morning, I feel not well as well. My mood doesn't improve any better. I try to look into the reasons why I am that blue and a bit emotional. Still can't figure it out. But all is well. I will be fine, in Him.