On the first day of the devotion plan I do with Tiff, I have a thought that it would be much better for me to write down the thing I have to confess to the Lord in order to ask for serious forgiveness.
This weekend/week is awesome that I spend more time with friends and less with God. I still do my devotion but I just know that I can spend more time quietly with God and focus just on Him in my every day life.
Things I should confess to God:
1. Laziness - there's thing I should do in advance for my move, my responsibility at my current job, self discipline, reach out to Porpor, etc.
-> I really want to change or at least be more proactive to allocate my time to improve myself and my life so I can be a good testimony. I have to confess that I just want to leave this job asap that I didn't even care about my performance anymore. May the Holy Spirit helps me with this.
2. Hidden judgement - mind is such a tricky thing that it instantly pops up judgements toward myself or people I meet in life. It can be a judgement that from nowhere or just an instinct that I should not just trust in first time but to dig deep to understand more. We are so harsh to others because we used the same thinking to judge ourself.
-> I pray that God can teach me the right thoughts and adjust my way of thinking so I won't judge at first time but to understand first. There must be story behind each action or idea, as actions are driven by thoughts.
3. Not giving enough thanks or credits to the Lord the saviour - even if I can't feel it, I am still committing this sin as I still think and know I'm not sensitive enough to do this. However, I believe it's like a muscle training. The more I try to do this more often, I will be more able to do this frequently.
-> Father, please forgive me for not giving thanks to you regularly. May the Holy Spirit be with me and remind me the moment when I wanna give a pass to give the the glory you deserve to have, so I can train my "give thanks" muscle :)
Amen!
Mon 24 May 11:02
