A 30 minutes lemongrass teatime with myself

It has been a long while for myself to sit down like the time I had back in UK, make myself a cup of tea, to write or to reflect or to do nothing.

To be honest, I feel like every day I am rushing to get a lot of things done with no purpose. Most of them I take them as "responsibility", yet I couldn't really enjoy the time working on each of the task.

What is the problem?

1. Myself

2. Space

3. Time Management

4. Priority

5. Occupied by technology

6. No time management and self-discipline

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I would like to slow things down, slow myself down and slow my thoughts down.

Everything just go through my brain without really digesting them. Every task was tackled one by one without the time to enjoy the outcome or to think or reflect. I just keep going keep walking but I am not happy.

It makes me can't even digest God's word as I have get used to the pace of my Hong Kong life while I know this should not be the way it works.

Couldn't believe I have been rushing and working at my 2nd workplace for 9 months now. Time really flies but I don't want to live in this pattern anymore.

Fatherpapa, guide me through and lead me to the place you can grant me peace.

I trust you.

Sense of belonging

Boyfriend has just safely arrived London.

I have spent my whole Sunday at home, on bed, taking rest inside out, have a few thoughts and plan in my mind. 

To be very honest, I didn't expect that my heart has changed in this way - Hong Kong is no longer a place that I could live peacefully and be 100% of myself now. Probably there's no change in Hong Kong, just my mentality and my exposure granted me this feeling and thought. 

In the past year, working and adapting everything in Hong Kong. I rarely could find a moment, a place, a space to quite myself down and to think or tackle problem one by one. Everything is so rush that I don't feel like "living" but "to stay alive". I really hate this, but this has been lasting for over a year already and it could last for a lifetime if i did nothing with this lifestyle. 

There are risks to make the decision of going back and have a new life there back in UK. However, I feel like it's worth to take the chance. Let me tidy my thought out: 

1. Life is too short to settle down in a place that keep draining our soul, body and thought

2. Hong Kong is such a busy place that my heart can never be at peace, which is one of my core in life

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Wrote on 17 Sept 2018