Back again / Oct 6

I come back when I feel like coming back.

I have to admit that there're a few times I would like to push myself to write something here to speed up my pace to grow or to understand something faster to catch up my own schedule. But then, till now, I realised that there are lot of things especially - growth, we have no ability to control. The more we interrupt the progress, the longer we will take. And I believe that's a smart lesson to have in our life time to figure out the important of "hands off" in some situations but not to push ourselves to do more than we should do :) I count all these as a smart act in life as well.

I came back to Hong Kong on the 4th Aug and started working on 7th Aug. So tomorrow will be my 2nd month anniversary of my job. To be honest, I didn't give myself enough of time to immerse in the city before I started working, so I basically just let myself to get used to different situations and different groups along the way. And when I looked back recently, I think I have done a pretty good job by changing the way I think and the way I set my goals to myself - to change the unreachable goals and replaced it by a more achievable one, which at the same time allowing myself to breathe but not to rush till the end (tho there's no end tbh).

Adult life just hit me with no notice before head. Recall the last two months in spent in Nottingham or the Europe, I remember I did try to give myself some mental preparation about stepping into the society which I could foresee lots of challenges and temptations. However, this made me realised that no matter how hard we tried to prepare for something, it would not be enough or would be imperfect. It may even be useless. One lesson I learnt from it is that we should always lift our worries and burdens to our God and hands off. This is a matter a faith I guess. And like Adrian always said, it doesn't help to think too much or to guess what will happen too much at the moment as we are going to encounter that anyways. So why should we put all these in front of ourselves before the things actually hit us so hard?

Oh my, I can't tell how huge this man is to be the gift from God in my life. He changes how I think and make me into a better person. :)

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The devotion this morning doesn't really hit me that hard, but to inspire me to realise what's the lesson given by God in these few months or even this year - to be patient. 

No matter in getting used to the working life, the whole long distance relationship period, to do better in each tasks in work place, etc. I just realised how much patience I need to get through all these and to get all this done. Oh wait, I have to remind myself I should always have a mindset that things will just keep rolling, there's no 'done' in the coming days and years.

"When you are tired, learn to rest but not to quit" - such a quote that appear in the middle of my hard time last month to keep me going. God always remember us and know what we are going through. He knows. Be still and know my dear.

Oct 6 13:26 at home, didn't go to work